Tonight, I decided to do this unusual thing on my blog that is otherwise full of only images of things I make. Tonight, I’m spelling out some thoughts.
I’ve been working on this short film lately, Portraiture, which I’ve written two years ago in a class and since then been very slowly developing. It got funded through some grants last spring, and now pre-production is in full swing. The shoot is less than a month ahead.
Words cannot express (at least not my words) all the swirling thoughts and feelings I have….
true story: a cosmic revelation
“We now know enough to know that we will never know everything. This is why we need art: it teaches us how to live with mystery. Only the artist can explore the ineffable without offering us an answer, for sometimes there is no answer. John Keats called this romantic impulse ‘negative capability.’ He said that certain poets, like Shakespeare, had ‘the ability to remain in uncertainties, mysteries, doubts, without any irritable reaching after fact and reason.’ Keats realized that just because something can’t be solved, or reduced into the laws of physics, doesn’t mean it isn’t real. When we venture beyond the edge of our knowledge, all we have is art.”
-from Proust Was a Neuroscientist by Jonah Lehrer
I just had a striking, inspirational, mind-blowing moment. And I feel the urge to somehow record this moment. In the recent month or so, I’ve been having several such moments. It’s a grand experience fairly new to me, and I promise that only the people who’ve experienced the moment knows the grandness of it.
The moment tonight is one that confirmed a groundbreaking philosophical revelation I had a few weeks ago in a shower. I was overjoyed in finding somebody’s words so effectively articulating the revelations I had that were beyond my words. It’s like I found a guy to back me up. I’m not alone in this thought. Well, the quote only backs up a part of my revelation, but still, it’s enough.
And tonight, I attempt at recording the behind story that’s been accumulating up to this moment…